Diary days

I take to journalling during particular times in my life. Rereading passages is like saying hello to my former self: a funny, albeit cringe-worthy experience. Thought I’d share some unedited excerpts from a not too old journal:

” Hello, new journal. I wonder how long I’ll keep you for. Hopefully until I’ve written in your last page and there are no more pages left. Hopefully until the very end, but things often don’t turn out as we hope, do they? ”

” Allow me to introduce myself: I’m Mariam. You’ll get to know me a lot better as more ink runs, no doubt. But for now, the fact that I’m Mariam is all you need to know. I will be Mariam today, tomorrow, and any other day that I choose to write in you, so I don’t have to keep repeating myself. “

” My feet are cold. Ice-cold. It’s a cold, wet day. “

” There’s a lady sitting next to me who is clearly a blogger or a copywriter. Good for her. How nice it would be to earn a living from writing; from delivering information in stylish ways; from educating and raising awareness on issues one finds important. “

“Good morning journal. I’m gonna call you ‘jo’ from now on, that ok? ”

“Note to self: don’t ever again order a mocha. Stick to coffee, tea or sparkling water. No palpitation-inducing, 21st century urban monster hybrid beverages. ”

” It’s so cold and dark. Why did I set a 6am alarm? I’ve put my yoga clothes on. I might do yoga. Then again, I might not. Though I probably will. Why else would I be up at this hour and dressed like this? ”

” The sun is out. It’s a fresh, bright day. No reason to moan about the weather. Going to visit my old university professor, D.A.C. Interested to see what feelings and emotions come up. Insecurity maybe. Nostalgia definitely. “

” Wearing red and black today. Hair is looking sleek and bouncy. “

” I’m glad my dad is coming home for good. Though not as glad as he is — he sounds astronomically ECSTATIC about it. Guess that demonstrates how miserable he is over there. Loneliness bites. “

” I can feel the holiday season in the air. I can see it and I can hear it. “

” Totally lacking enthusiasm. It’s one of those mornings. Reluctant to write ‘one of those days’ as I don’t want to resign myself to having a rubbish day already. “

” I love cats. I want a cat. Like, I really want a cat. “

” I’m wearing a nice green jumper. ”

” Cheese and broccoli: a stellar combination. “

” I woke up much later than usual. It’s dark out, there’s no one here but me, and I have no where to be. “

” Three amazing things happened today, but I’ll tell you about them later. “