Loud

I’ve never realised until now how terribly loud it is here
Noises everywhere!
Emanating from every corner and angle and nook
I mind it
I truly mind it
I’m getting nowhere with this piece
If I could, I would sprout wings and go off-grid
Fly off to an uninhabited island where silence reigns with a majestic, golden crown
The waves gently lapping at the coast wouldn’t bother me
No. For that is not true noise – that is peace sound
That is a shiatsu head massage, that is
Would you be there? Yes of course you would be
You’re my head; you accompany me everywhere!
What do you mean “then it would still be loud”?
We would be on a remote island!
Just me and you — Ah, I see where you’re going
Yes, I see
Well you could be quiet for a change
What do you mean “impossible”?
I could train you
You could learn
With a tinge of patience and a bout practice it could definitely be ach—
oh shut up.

Reasons to walk after dinner

  • To let the vapour of polluted conversations dissolve into the air.
  • To escape dish-washing duties.
  • To breathe in the fresh air.
  • To perfect your stride.
  • To play the ‘automatic or manual’ car game.
  • To eavesdrop on birds.
  • To let post-dinner gases be released outside in the open air.
  • To provide your assistance to lost travellers if required.
  • To see how long that cat will follow you for.
  • To look at trees.
  • To look at your laces.
  • To see what the neighbourhood folk are up to (is that lady playing piano again?)
  • To pretend you’re the leader of an expedition.
  • To lock eyes with a fox.
  • To lose your way.
  • To return.

Diary days

I take to journalling during particular times in my life. Rereading passages is like saying hello to my former self: a funny, albeit cringe-worthy experience. Thought I’d share some unedited excerpts from a not too old journal:

” Hello, new journal. I wonder how long I’ll keep you for. Hopefully until I’ve written in your last page and there are no more pages left. Hopefully until the very end, but things often don’t turn out as we hope, do they? ”

” Allow me to introduce myself: I’m Mariam. You’ll get to know me a lot better as more ink runs, no doubt. But for now, the fact that I’m Mariam is all you need to know. I will be Mariam today, tomorrow, and any other day that I choose to write in you, so I don’t have to keep repeating myself. “

” My feet are cold. Ice-cold. It’s a cold, wet day. “

” There’s a lady sitting next to me who is clearly a blogger or a copywriter. Good for her. How nice it would be to earn a living from writing; from delivering information in stylish ways; from educating and raising awareness on issues one finds important. “

“Good morning journal. I’m gonna call you ‘jo’ from now on, that ok? ”

“Note to self: don’t ever again order a mocha. Stick to coffee, tea or sparkling water. No palpitation-inducing, 21st century urban monster hybrid beverages. ”

” It’s so cold and dark. Why did I set a 6am alarm? I’ve put my yoga clothes on. I might do yoga. Then again, I might not. Though I probably will. Why else would I be up at this hour and dressed like this? ”

” The sun is out. It’s a fresh, bright day. No reason to moan about the weather. Going to visit my old university professor, D.A.C. Interested to see what feelings and emotions come up. Insecurity maybe. Nostalgia definitely. “

” Wearing red and black today. Hair is looking sleek and bouncy. “

” I’m glad my dad is coming home for good. Though not as glad as he is — he sounds astronomically ECSTATIC about it. Guess that demonstrates how miserable he is over there. Loneliness bites. “

” I can feel the holiday season in the air. I can see it and I can hear it. “

” Totally lacking enthusiasm. It’s one of those mornings. Reluctant to write ‘one of those days’ as I don’t want to resign myself to having a rubbish day already. “

” I love cats. I want a cat. Like, I really want a cat. “

” I’m wearing a nice green jumper. ”

” Cheese and broccoli: a stellar combination. “

” I woke up much later than usual. It’s dark out, there’s no one here but me, and I have no where to be. “

” Three amazing things happened today, but I’ll tell you about them later. “